in my heart

love

live to the point

live to the point of tears.
- albert camus

the kind of tears that both
break your heart
and fill you with joy

all will fail

like this

i'd walk to you

crumpled

it's amazing to me how someone can love another whose heart has been crumpled. they're heart will never be the same. but somehow, love can mend that poor heart. they can flatten it out, try to remove the creases. but they will never go away. the divots won't be there, but the creases that recall those divots will remain forever. some may say that those permanent creases make someone not worth loving, because they have been tainted. but those very creases. they symbolize heartache that stemmed from a powerful love, this is true. but they also symbolize strength.

and no one wants to love or be loved without those heart wrenching experiences that gave them that strength within themselves to be able to love again. to be able to be loved again. i used to despise those creases. how dare they taint the new life i want. the love i wish to have. how dare they be there always to remind me of what once used to be. but now. now i cherish those creases. because without them, i wouldn't be able to do any of those things i wanted. there is no way i would be able to have this "new" life and there is, above all, no way i would have to the love that i deserve. you can't judge the bad of someone's life, because it gave them the ability to be who they are today.

erasing

i want you to follow

over 6 billion

becomes one

"One is not born a woman; 

one becomes one".

-Simone de Beauvoir 1973.

because it is worth every moment

bud

and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud, was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
-anais nin

they do pay attention

in your arms

millions and millions of years 

would still not give me half enough time 

to describe that tiny instant of all eternity 

when you put your arms around me

and i put my arms around you.

jacques prevert

can make her do anything

if you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.
marilyn monroe

only you can hear

you don't love a person for their looks, or their clothes, or for their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear. 

oscar wilde

safe and

the rest

when i am with you

to be silly

by loving

and even after

cling

let go. why do you cling to pain? there is nothing you can do about the wrongs of yesterday. it is not yours to judge. why hold on to the very thing which keeps you from hope and love?
-leo buscaglia



i need to let go of some pain. words that i still can't believe were spoken. again and again. some people refuse to lift the disapproval from your choices. refuse to believe that maybe i do know just how to find the happiness they insist i will never get. perhaps they forget what it means to unconditionally love. 
it hurts my heart. and my soul. i want to fight back. so badly. but also i want to just let it all go. i can do nothing to change the minds of others. and i can't try any longer. so you believe what you will. 
all i want is to live my life. and you to live yours.

love is