adjust

Adjusting to real life after so many weeks of adventure is not pleasant.

In fact I wish I was still away, exploring the world

instead of here, at "home".

It really would be home if you were here (and soon you will be).
When you're with me anywhere is home.

For now I'm trying to find some semblance of belonging

in a place I was so happy to escape.

tricky

today you called me. i couldn't answer.
so you texted me. you were in an accident, but you'd love me forever.
i quickly called you back.

were you ok? hurt? alive?

of course you were.
there was no accident.

you just wanted to hear my voice.


it was tricky, yes, but so very adorable.
I don't know why you love me, but never stop.

just because

when we are together

a girl can never hear it enough

destruct

i've been feeling self-destructive lately.
nearly ruining my most precious parts of life.

i can't figure out why.
and that's the part that hurts the most.

maybe it's too much of a good thing.
and my mind just can't comprehend that things could be this good.

maybe i'm just testing the waters.
seeing how far i can go until i'm too much. too much for anyone to handle.

because i still can't believe that i can really be happy. that i really deserve to be happy.

sometimes it's easier to be mad
than sad.
or happy.

but then again, i always forget,
that letting yourself find happiness
is always easier than making yourself miserable

I

you