Here

There's a place I've been lookin' for
That took me in and out of buildings
Behind windows, walls and doors
And I thought I found it
Couple times, even settled down
And I'd hang around just long enough
To find my way back out
I know now the place that I was trying to reach
Was you, right here in front of me

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd retrieve all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

It's amazing what I let my heart go through
To get me where it got me
In this moment here with you
And it passed me by
God knows how many times
I was so caught up in holding
What I never thought I'd find
I know now, there's a million roads
I had to take
To get me in your arms that way

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd retrieve all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

In a love I never thought I'd get to get to
-here
And if that's the road
God made me take to be with you

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd retrieve all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

And I'd retrieve all the years
And be thankful for all the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

adjust

Adjusting to real life after so many weeks of adventure is not pleasant.

In fact I wish I was still away, exploring the world

instead of here, at "home".

It really would be home if you were here (and soon you will be).
When you're with me anywhere is home.

For now I'm trying to find some semblance of belonging

in a place I was so happy to escape.

tricky

today you called me. i couldn't answer.
so you texted me. you were in an accident, but you'd love me forever.
i quickly called you back.

were you ok? hurt? alive?

of course you were.
there was no accident.

you just wanted to hear my voice.


it was tricky, yes, but so very adorable.
I don't know why you love me, but never stop.

just because

when we are together

a girl can never hear it enough

destruct

i've been feeling self-destructive lately.
nearly ruining my most precious parts of life.

i can't figure out why.
and that's the part that hurts the most.

maybe it's too much of a good thing.
and my mind just can't comprehend that things could be this good.

maybe i'm just testing the waters.
seeing how far i can go until i'm too much. too much for anyone to handle.

because i still can't believe that i can really be happy. that i really deserve to be happy.

sometimes it's easier to be mad
than sad.
or happy.

but then again, i always forget,
that letting yourself find happiness
is always easier than making yourself miserable